You Must Not Know Bout Me

2009-03-14T23:14:00.000-07:00

LAZY TO UPDATE MY BLOG! I M TOOO SHAGGED TO SAY WHATS GOIN ON....I M FEELING BORED WITH MY LIFE...ITS ALWAYS ABOUT WORK AND MORE WORK.... I NEED SOMETHING NEW....HAHAHA...PROBABLY I M GOING TO DELETE MY BLOG SOON SINCE I WONT BE UPDATING IT OFTEN...DUE TO TIME!!

2009-03-06T04:36:00.000-08:00

2009-03-05T04:15:00.000-08:00

YEAA!!! todae is my off day...first off day during the weekday la feels like saturday...

Soo went out with fafa honey and hannah sweety...Planned to watch MY BLOODY VALENTINE...the show is like superb brutal and hardcore la sia...its fucking disgusting as well and scary...more bout murder shit la....

sooo den ate at bbq at e hub...den me and fafa was bored coz hannah had to go offf...sooo eventually we catch another movie,PUSH!! the movie is coolshit...more bout powers and stuff...wanted to watch watchmen but the time is too late...and omg!! overall i had such a great time coz i had such a relaxing time rather than stucked at work all the time...

was wasted coz shikin and jah couldnt join us...its ok...another time then...

things at work is great...the staff there are cool....i found my smoking buddies already..hahaha....and i cant wait to be in charge maybe next week...i tink i m prepared for it!! lol

2009-03-01T04:02:00.000-08:00

Waiting patiently......
maybe his out there somewhere...getting too many pressure from mum...im still young though...Mum keeps asking me weird questions....' farhah kau da besar beh no boyfren' and all i could do was gave her the 'huh' face.... she said that i have to find him coz he wont come like that....like weird kan...aniwaes jodoh tu di tangan tuhan...
SPEECHLESS

2009-03-01T03:54:00.000-08:00

Work work and more work...

starting my shift work next week...soo much better la, getting sian of morning everyday...ok so work on sat was superb man...i meant that i felt the responsibility as an EN, furthermore majority of the staff there are cool... getting the hang of it...

Outing with the gals has always been fun and great..coz we talk nonsense and do lots of nonsense thingy...aniwaes hang out with shikin and johnny!! great to have them back..insyallah march we will gooo clubbing! but then again have to see my schedule... and i wana enroll car soon lor....

family life has been fine, though i rarely see my big bro...nvm ah noo comments bout it coz i ve always believed in the phrase " blood is thicker than water"...

love my parents soo much and the bond between me and sis is getting better i hopee....

And yea i hate being in the middle of any misunderstandings or conflicts and i m fucking neutral okae...Soo dont involve me!! i m super clean...

Dont judge me coz of looks, know me first den talk bout it

2009-02-25T02:43:00.000-08:00

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2009-02-21T22:24:00.000-08:00

So a week have passed in the ward and i m getting hang on it....mostly everyone helps out there...worked on my first sat was abit sian lor...den i realised its even fun to work on sat...furthermore no students on sat, soo it give me a touched of handling most of the things alone...it was not that easy la...but insyallah after a while i get used to it....

Finally sat after work is the only time i can go out...dude i could feel the oxygen wen i went out with the gals...hahahah...k2 i m over exaggerating...Well me and gals had fun though....plan was to go mustafa center la but however we sacred sat evening banyak mama will take chance raba2 us...sooo instead we went to ecp mkn komalas...food was nice laa....Then kan we went to play bowling!! weee been ages since i play it....ooh yeaa i did an airbrush tatoooo...and its soo ghettoo la....i means its soo cool...however i wanted the glitter tatooo tapi dont have...Jah and fafa wasted money at the machine that grabs cookie monster doll and put in the hole..mati2 nk that cookie monster...hahaha...yea bowling was fun too...if u were there u would noe wad i mean...Soo we ended the day with a few drinks and ciggies...ohh yea it was nice to have An, fafa's hubby theree...

thanks people...juz a day i would want after all the work at work...

2009-02-17T03:26:00.000-08:00

Sooo Real work Has Started!!

LEt it all Begin...LEt me pass through this first week first den i shall update more bout me!!

I hate first few weeks...makes me feel like an idiot... i got to start adapting to the new environment and the people around me..Gosh!!

May god guide me!!

2009-02-13T22:41:00.000-08:00

The moment on stage receiving the cert...awww my face like kelempek!!!

lining up....see the tension on our faces....with lots of people looking...

omg!! there are no words for me to describe the love and friendship i have to the wonderful gals.... i m super blessed....if only aisyah wear uniform kan da lawa!!!

though we both like kucing and anjing but we still love each other...

my 2 sexy ladies...

2009-02-11T02:56:00.000-08:00

My face like shit!! stupid cameraman!!! i look like cartoon....

A mother and Daughter pic formally....She is the reason for wad i am todae...

GRADUATION CEREMONY!!

Mum wanted to tag along soo badly to see her daughter up on the stage...touching kan...Had lots of pics taken today with the nursing frens, but will upload it soon wen i get it...WEll its juz shock coz 2 yrs have ended juz like that....it was really sad leaving behind being a student and leaving the wonderful teachers and also the greatest frens.... 2 yrs is over yet alot had happen...memories that will never be erased...omg!! i feel like crying la kan...All of us are grown up now and noo more Student but Enrolled Nurse!! i m sooo going to miss my Fadhilah! farzana! Zhen Ni! Aiyshah! Rashiqa! Haikhal! Charlynne!Zaim! Zamir! Habib!Dewi! KEcik! and many many moree....Wish i had more time to spend with u guys but unfortunately most of us have to rush back to work...

ok soo was super thankful that mum followed me la, though she did things that embarrassed me somehow...i was like telling her mum plzzz control ur hyperactiveness...sheee was likee superr kpo and kiasu at times la...weird part was wenever i waved my hands to any of my frens she also join....mum super funny at times la...at first it was abit malu la...tapi lama2 i realise that my mum is an exact replica of me...Most of the peeps were soo amazaed with mum sportingness.....I paid to take a graduation pic with my Life...YES!! mum and me look exact i guess....i donnot noe wad to do without her....She is my life....i lovee herr soo much...and the most touching she told me she was soo proud of me...Alhamdulilah...for the first time in my life..i used to get in to trouble but eventually i succeed...

2009-02-11T02:43:00.000-08:00

2009-02-10T02:50:00.000-08:00

Happy 19th Birthdae To my Sweet Siti Khadijah!!

goossh it felt like we juz celebrated ur 18 bdae yesterday...Days are juz passing by extremely fast...Aniwaes sorri didnt do much this yr for u, coz its a weekday and bz with work...May allah always bless u and ur wonderful family...Never did regret our 7 yrs of friendship though u can get irritating at times....Wish u all the best in life and insyallah our friendship will last long...

2009-02-07T22:22:00.000-08:00

for now we can only expect 1 post a week...Due to the tight schedule and me being tooo shagged to even blog...Soo ok during ite we all had to do BCLS!! and i struggle alot to do that module...but eventuallyy with my wonderful classmates support i did it...soo i thought its all over for 2 yrs la kan...coz its a stupid licence that last for 2 yrs...den skali start working with cgh...they ask to do the whole module again...alamaaak....punya la stress...coz i dont see a point there doing that module in ite...they should make it like every hospital to do the module...

Sooooo the outcome of it is....i did GOOD!!! i mean i was super scared la kan...but with alot of studying and REDBULL!! i managed to do it in 1 attempt....this burden is over!! woohooo till another 2 yrs...

a week more till i step to the ward as an EN...its quite boring sitting down and listenin to lectures over and over again...it feels like a student...hahaha...okae...

ME and my galfrens have been great....able to put some time for them..hehehe... We went to watch underworld...u noe that i loveee movies that concern vampires and werewolf....

Underworld-Lays of Lycons wasnt that bad but coz its only an hour and 20 mins soooo mcm boring gitu kan...ohh yea did i tell u that i m like a twilight fanatic...den i read all the book...

2nd book- NEw moon... 3rd book- Eclipse and last book-Breaking Dawn...

i m finishing the last book though,...sooo fun kan...

me and family is doing well, alhamdulilah...i ll make it a habit to have a talking session with mum soo she wont feel left out.....i understand that at time she is lonely coz everyone is working and she's home boring....ohh welll i m gonna give my family a treat todae....

2009-02-07T22:07:00.000-08:00

a few pics that should be updated...sorri la been too hectic soo less pics are taken..

2009-02-02T05:43:00.000-08:00

Exactly a week since i ve updated...

Other than attending my work or so called orientation programmes during the weekday i have been goin home after that...soo been a good dal during the weekdays...Ohh yeaa...shira been meeting me up alot!! i told her that she loves me but she keep denying...hahaha...

ohhh well bout i got a call on sat from my dear hannah saying that she got free tix to ecape theme park and the expiry day is that sat itself...soo fortunately didnt had any plan soo i agreed...at first it was juz me, timah and hannah...and jah will join us after her work...eventually we bumped in to my dear shikin!! and we got more free tix...den kin hang out with us!! it was fun!! been aged since i went to escape theme park!! and i love the GO- KART!! tapi nk tunggu peh lama!!....the games there aint that bad la...As long as i had the gals with me things will get better....

i tried something and it was fun! though it wasnt healthy..but its once in a lifetime event

Soo For the sundae mum woke me up super early la...had to go to my aunty clinic coz she is celebrating her 25th anniversary of the clinic...mum cook for her...mum soo rajin la kan...sooo yea been quite a while since i met all the mak ciks and all the kakak2....the topic bout the new job is common though but now new hot topic..Bila farhah nk kahwin!!! that one super mangkok la kan...seriously i never ever thought bout marriage any time soon....i have lots more thing to achieve....havent enjoy my life enough...i m beganing to enjoy layaning all the mak ciks!!!

okae! sooo i lepak2 with fren after that for a while only...

Den eventually my irritating cuz call he wana hang out...soo yup had a date with him...been some time....We ate mee goreng at eunos, punya la sweet we share 1 plate!! hahaha....den after that he brought me to a chill place and drank!! i love him soo much though...its feels that we are all growing up super fast...i still remember those days wen me and him running around the house...awww...i was happy that i m able to do some catching up with him...at least i ve given him some attention...

2009-01-26T01:51:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO MY GREATEST BROTHER IN THE WORLD...aww arent i the best sis!!

I shall not mention ur age coz u are growing too bloody old yet u re quite childish..Juz wana say that without a bro u, i wont be who i am todae...YES u bullied me to the core till i ran crying to mummy wen i was younger but u taught me wads real life...u taught me the goods and bads of the streets..u taught me the true meaning of frens and love..that made our bond even stronger..I m suppperrr blessed with an amazing brother like u, could never ask for a better person coz i m grateful enough...i noe that things hasnt been on the right path for u this past few months but always bare in mind that we are all here for u...insyallah one day u will get wad belongs to u...Dont give a damn wad they say bout u coz those idiots will get their retribution one day...MAy god bless u always.. Love u!

2009-01-23T22:14:00.000-08:00

Soo everyone must be wondering hows first week of work??
It aint that bad coz we have a 3 weeks orientation programme where we attends talks, lectures and do some practical thingy...it feels like soooo ITE sia...its a good thing coz like gaji buta la...
the intake in cgh is combined with foreigners, philiphines and indians...Soo its kinnda irritating coz the staff have to explain everything back to basics whereas we new graduates know cgh quite well....hmmm....bare with it though...soo far the staff there ar okae la... juz realised that this job aint easy man..i mean its freaking leceh coz 2009 da high tech soo they use more of computers to do certain stuff la....u noe i should have choosen A&E sia...wasted!! nvm after a yr i can ask for transfer...seriously it takes some time to have a better communication with the foriegners....gossh.... aniwae i m also looking forward for graduation and to start work at the ward!!
Aite enough bout me and the work crap...
Did went out with jah and fafa on 21st jan, we went to mkn at east coast...i swear its been a long time since we ate much...we have like ikan pari bakar,kangkong,sotong,bbq chickens...it was soo much for the 3 of us...I had fun that day!! we sat and chill,i meant its been since a while that we had a nice time......
i miss my FADH,FARZANA,AIYSHAH AND ZHEN NI....
u my best nursing gals...i miss u alll sooo much!! omg

2009-01-19T05:33:00.000-08:00

Time is passing by super fast and without realising it tmr is my big day...it will be my first day of work..I ve completed all of the medical check up,given all my documents and regiestered in SNB..Got my practictioning cert as well...Went for my uniform measurements in the morning..Soo for the first 3 weeks of work i m gonna be under training and i have to wear something formal for this 3 weeks...stress sia...i seriously donnoe wad to wear..its like goin to poly changing clothes everyday!

ok this is the best part i m gonna be working at ward 47!! ward 47 was one of my request lor...Well i badly wanted ward 39 but its ok la...fortunately i did my night shigt at 47...and the staff there aint that bad la..i hope la...did i mention that i love the dress uniform!! hahaha...

i m feeling soo nervous and excited...omg! y am i growing upp soo fast..hehehe..

i can do it!! insyallah...

All this can never happen without my great parent support and my wonderful fren support....i m soooo gonna be a career women...hahaha....i m soo gonna miss my days being a student and being free...Well this are all part of growing up...

2009-01-15T05:38:00.000-08:00

Todae i was awaken by the extreme shock of an early call by cgh...They called urgently to ask me get my transcript in skul and give it to them by todae jugak by hook and crook...soo thanks to the wonderful teman of jah and fafa who gladly woke up early in the morning...Went to ite simei first and get my transcript and den jah applied for april intake...Den proceed to cgh...Soo met the Hr department and sign the contract with them...after all the xplaination of being part of cgh and all i was super speechless yet happy...coz i noe that no matter wad i still wana work there coz i m soo much confortable in that hospital...Soo then the scaring part is i start work this tues!! 20 Jan... thats super fast dont u tink....its like not even a week advance...soo its been sooo rushing todae coz i got my medical check up done too...took hiv/hep a/hep b test and did a chest x ray...superr shagged la todae i doonoe y.....this few days will be super rushing for me...i need to go to SNB to register tmr...fortunately the sgh people are goin there tmr for their briefing and uniform measurements...soooo i m happy that i m gonna met them... Mondae will be my uniform testing thingy!! i m quite scared to start working...well coz this is real work...this is the part wen i m on my own...noo lecturers will help me at all...juz my own self... Mum and Dad is happy la coz i finally got a stable job...Real Work is kinnda spooky, gives me butterflies in my stomach....Insyallah with allah guidance i will make it through.,...and i really hope i got the ward that i suggest for....Godd!!!!!

A whole new world begin starting from 20 Jan!! Farhah wont be useless anymore...she will be known as En Farhah...woooo....kinnda exciting though....i m soo gonna miss my slacking life!!!

Ohh yea!! thanks Jah and Fafa for temaning me todae..i really appreciate it!! i would have been one blur sotong without u both...

And too Fie dont be sad ok its not the end yet!! we are all juz growing up too fast honey...Ensure that this will never change our friendship...Lots of Love

2009-01-14T09:30:00.000-08:00

i miss him and his stupid nonsense alot!!been quite a while since we hang out!! my wonderful cuzzie who i grow up with...he is used to be superr short but his like superr tall....and yes he is my younger cuzzie by a few days only..i donnoe y am i blogging about him but coz he is sad that i havent talk much bout him in MY blog lor...well i m blogging this and he is on the phone with me....i m always encouraging him to get a gf but i realised that he have a mental disorder which is sexuality dysfunction but he claims that its good coz his closer to god....bullshit la he...stupid wild idiot!! To the gals out there i m clearly letting u noe that i have a single cuzzie out there...feel free to contact me if interested!!

Shit he is goin to kill me for blogging this!! but coz i m bored!! yet i still love him lots...weee

2009-01-14T08:55:00.000-08:00

Currently havent been updating well mainly coz i m back at spore post working..they call me in coz of chinese new yr season....den i also free kan soo i work la...sooo den been working everday 6 to 11 pm with nani jan la...havent been updating lately with everyone around me...i miss my galfrens and nursing gals...always plan with fadh to go out but everytime tk jadi..i miss u baby...

recently had a relative who juz passed away due to an accident...very kesian...may allah bless her and may she rest in peace...insyallah...

its frightening to see that our lives can just be taken away anytime anywhere...

ook enough on that...yea soo i decided that being single will be the best idea for now...my life isnt settle at the moment soo by being in a relationship will make things complicated...i dont wana hurt anyone...soo its better i tell first rather than theres hope...

infact i m loving my life...my job, my family and my friends...hehehe

aniwaes Changi Hospital Accepted me already!!! wohhooooo...

alhamdulilah finally my request being answered...

they say they will call me next week den they will explain more...

2009-01-07T06:01:00.000-08:00

4 Jan 2009

An outing plan by me was made successful thanks to our big bro in class Zaim...

After a long time everyone been asking me wen are we all gonna go out...yes the turn out wasnt that bad...13 of us...But it would have been better if the rest came...some couldnt make it coz of work and stuff...and some couldnt get through la...aiyooo

People who came were:

Farhah
Farzan& Ted
Zaim
Huda
Zamir
Dewi
Herit
Faizuan
Habibo( sadly he juz got in ns, all the best honey)
Nysa
Janice
Wani

We all met at bugis den proceed to Nabin's to get something to drink and all felt like getting high on shisha...hahaha...Took 3 shisha with differ flavours...talk crap and get wasted...nahhhh..it was realli nice meeting all of them....Den after all the lepaking..we went to zam zam to mkn murtabak ayam...hmmm sedappp!! coz our big bro blanja...hehee..time was passing by soo fast wen i realised that it was time to hug and kiss each other goodbye...furthermore it was a reunion for habib before he went to ns...cheh dia abg2 police seh....i really thank god for granting me wonderful frens...having to noe them for 2 yrs was a great experience..they were there for each other through thick and thin moment...

May God Bless Everyone and LEad them to a Good Future..

2009-01-07T05:46:00.000-08:00

Finally More pics updated...
4 Jan 2009..
Thanks to wiwy for all the wonderful pics..

2009-01-04T06:43:00.000-08:00

i donnoe y havent i been updating..though i aint bz but cam malas...Well for countdown went karoake with labvee,azrin,rakinah and didee...Was damn fun la...

Pretty much havent been doing anything yng berfaedah lately..been slacking with the gals or been watchin movies at home...I need a job la like seriously....if nt i tk de arah tujuan la..i need to do something useful!! its soo frustrating waiting for the answer of the hospitals...

If anyone have any job vacancy tell me plz!!! Will be much appreciated =D

I got lots of pics to update but however theres some bloody problem with my picture editor...i donnoe wads the prob..it seems that i can edit any pics...my com also something wrong...everything in me something wrong...aiyooooo...Serious shit man i need to get a life!!! hahaha....everybody say no need work,enjoy ur break time now but cannot la...coz super bored la...den somemore next week onwards some of my them da start skola...lagi mendak kan...

Ok something wrong with me!!!

Guess whos back!! His back..WEee~~~ i ll pray that u will be a fire fighter...yeye!!! u re becoming a man...Fire Fighter are hot okae..may god bless u in wadever u do...i miss u =D

2008-12-30T07:48:00.000-08:00

Yes people i m finally back from batam...It was my first trip with jah and fafa out of town...it was a great experience for me...Fun though...fortunately mamat tag along with us...so basically shopping there wasnt that bad...fafa and jah bought lots of shirts and jackets...i bought more make up, handbags and more girly stuff...hehehe.. we ate alot la..ok me and mamat ate alot....A&W rocks!!! weeee...Managed to drink a lil in the pub...yet we all super tired la due to all the walking and nonsense...

boughts lots of kerepeks and keropoks for people at home...lots happen yet hard to say...wanna noe more bout batam trip ask me!! and yea omg!! guys there look at me like wan to mkn me la...they see me like fresh new blood...Sepak mampus...but gt to admit ada cowok-cowok yng ganteng banget...hahaha

But i truly missed home wen i was there!! i MISS My MUMMY AND DADDY...

Dont u all feel that life can be soo unpredictable at times...Wen there was a time u re finally moving on with ur life, forgetting the past though its not possible too...juz happen to reappear back in ur life...I cant identify nor express the feeling that i have now...i m happy that u re back somehow yet i feel scared...Wadever happen last time wasnt ur fault it was juz a misunderstanding...i accepted the fact that things couldnt work out between us...i noe i can get emotional at times but since now u re here i wana let u noe wad i felt...yea yea yea u keep saying its all in the past...but u re a guy it aint easy for u to understand...well mayb i should be keeping things low...Y is it wen u are going out with someone already then alot of people start runnin back to u... is this some sort of test!! coz its making me gooo confused...at a moment i wana be with u and another i would like to be with another...look i m more afraid of hurting u rather than myself...i may be tooo dumb to jaga ur prasaan rather than mine...but thats me...

Dude!! i fucking miss u soo much but at the same time i feel like kicking ur balls....Dont u all tink at times i talk too much crap...Well u see i m stress and confused....but at the same time i m excited that his back...plz let this all be real...he is the only one that i can never forget....Insyallah with gods blessing if there is another oppurtinity i will take the risk again and start over new.....Ohhh damn!! but will that mean ME hurting others....Am i putting myself in a mess.....i m seriously losing my mind....u noe i m a very confused girl...i m juz like an unwritten book...nobody can read me...i cant even read myself....omg!! omg!!

2009 is finally reaching and i tink i have to set some goals that are worthwhile rather than figuring myself out....

2008-12-24T23:17:00.000-08:00

work work and work...finally its christmas and off!!
been having lack of sleep and lack of time spend with anwar...sorri honey...
Greatest Excitement is tomorrow is my batam trip and i havent even start packing...
I cant wait for my sis to come back from batam later...she also kpo la...she went on tuesdae with her guy frens and all....i wana hear all the stories...dude!! i m missing her already...mayb coz i got no one to irritate...
Wanna smoke some WEED!!! nahhh ......juz kidding....lots to buy there...
big bro sponsored 100 dolar to me...hahahaha soo random of him la...well thanks...
i m sooo bored now....
talked to fie last nite during my break time at work!! she was goin clubbing and i was stuck at work...not fair!! fie beeen going crazy lately..love that kid alot man...
i miss hannah tooo!!! dudue!!! we will all go out together sometime soon....time is the reason for us nt meeting...hehehe....
oooh wait!! i m not bored now...anwar called and we gonna meet...yeyeyey!!!!
bye everyone shall update once i m back from batam...
**loves**
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2008-12-24T23:02:00.000-08:00

LAtest Pics!! taken on 20th Dec on my nephew 1 yrs bdae party...Sis was camwhoring and thats wen i join!!! Weee*****

2008-12-23T23:11:00.000-08:00

Finally my sweet lady is 18!!

The moment that u ve been waiting for have finally arrived...

Wishing u a Happy !8 Birthday....May allah bless u and ur wonderful family...i noe we may ve been through a few ups and downs...but no matter wad i will always love u...eew!! now i sound soo les...hehehe...Sorri we couldnt make ur bdae something big coz of work schedule...dont worri we shall continue the fun at batam....

ur prezzie coming soon okae...

~~LOVES~~

2008-12-21T03:26:00.000-08:00

i noe i noe lots to be shared!!
well firstly i got a part time job, back to my old job at spore post... i ve been hooked to my job...i wana earn more thats y i request more hours to work...hahaha..
i m soo excited this fridae my batam trip with the gals...realli looking forward to it..
ohh yea went to watch twilight last week and the movie was superrr touching and quiet funny la...2 thumbs up!! Well i had a fun time with jah,fafa and hannah...
ME and Ano have been going well except for certain ups and downs by people who have green eyes...i m enjoying all my moments with him..its been such a long time since i felt this way...maybe its time for a new chapter...hmm!! still tinkin bout it... omg!!

tomorow my interview with Changi!!! i realli want to work there la...Insyallah i m able to get the job there...Amin!!

Yesterdai My dear haziq 1st bdae...isnt he soo adorable...and he is super smart la...mAY ALLAH always bless him and guide him to the right path of life...HAd a bbq thingy at pasir ris beach...it was quite fun la...i was the game planner an eventually all the games work out right la though i didnt plan any..hahaha...Alhamdulilah it was a nice gathering for the whole family too...its nice to spend time with ur loves ones..

I MISS MY NURSING GIRLS AND CLASSMATES LOR!! I WILL PLAN SOMETHING UP SOMETIME SOON AITE...dEFINATELY BEFORE ALL OF U START WORKING OR NS..

2008-12-15T05:46:00.000-08:00

Been drinkin 2 days in a row...its unlike me...lol!!

Drinking with Ano is fun la...i feel secure being around him and i trust him alot...furthermore its like a test to him...i wana noe wad type of guy is he..Well he definately didnt try to take advantage of me...hehehe...

aWWWWWWW my big toe nail came out!! coz terlanggar my house door..then bleeding like fuck la...my house all got blood...weird part is i wanted to pengsan to see the blood coming out alot from the toe...yea i noe laugh laugh....nurse scared of own blood...Well hard to explain...stayed at home todae and sleep most of the time...mum happy coz i tk merayap...

i have to submitt the application form as soon as possible...shit la!! i keep delaying....by hook and crook i need to send it tmr...

I feel like being alone this past few days...juz now it was weird la..i sat under the blk all alone smoking for 1/2 an hour...i donnoe wads the main trouble but i noe there are stuff that DISSAPOINT me alot.... hard to explain wad i feel la...

I guess tmr i m goin to do some chored alone....its better that wae for now...

Good ah stay at home never waste money!!!!!!!!

2008-12-14T02:19:00.000-08:00

Had a nice time on Sat, spend with hannah, jah and fafa...The actual plan was to play pool den change to watch a movie and finally change to chill at pasir ris park...It was soo damn shiok la...i love hanging out there...damn windy and romantic...hahaha...

Chit chat nonsense....

Den met up with anwar at 930 at tamp...he wanted to chill...

ok ok...i tink i need a part time job for the moment coz i wont be able to start working in a hospital till i get my transcript..everyone been telling me enjoy my life now...but den i feel that sit at home or everytime merayap like not nice kan...i wana do keje yng berfaedah la kan..hahha..Soo anyone got any part time job plz inform me...

I m soo saving up now for the batam trip...i sooo cant wait...i m soo gonna shop...furthermore my first galfren trip overseas la...I tink i should be lucky coz mum been giving me much freedom mayb coz i m growing up and maybe i need some space on my own..hehehe...i will never take things for granted...

omg!! soo many things too do... i need to send in my forms to cgh...need to go threading...need to get lots of stuff....

Just soo for everyone whos been asking who is this anwar guy that i ve been talking bout...Well thats him...he is a pakistan mix with punjabi...Nice guy that i ve been goin out with...but not in any relationship...juz close frens...And he is superr dooopeer tall la.... And he is a reall sweet guy la... hehehe!! he is sooo addicted to me and my nonsense....

2008-12-12T09:29:00.000-08:00

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG!

thousand omg...2 yrs of nursing is finally completed...i survived!!! yes i survived!!

feeling happy coz i wont be called student but i ll be called EN!! dude i didnt expect myself to be a nurse in whole entire life..Maybe its faithed...Alhamdulilah...thanks to my parents and sibling for their wonderful support and motivation for this course...

Feeling sad coz i ll be missing my wonderful peeps...My best classmates!!! i love all of them soo much [ ok maybe not all]...

Sad la seh...nga tahan ngangis ni....

After some time since i talked to big bro bout life...Always tau after talking to him i very emo!! i soo sad la coz i missed all the fun times wen we all spend time together and did alot of nonsense... well everyone been bz and i hardly see any of them...well theres alot of issues been goin on lately..Fortunately i m able to talk sense to him at times...We are all growing up and being matured we shouldnt have any conflicts between OWN BLOOD kan...We should all be helping each other if ones down...hard to talk to stubborn people though...

I miss everyone!! insyallah with gods help everything will be fine....We will work things out okae big bro....

OK OK ITS LATE AND HE IS WAITING FOR MY KOL I SHOULD STOP BEING TOOO EMOTIONAL...

2008-12-05T22:08:00.000-08:00

I m soo happy coz its finally fridae and i m on mornin shift...and mondae noo work coz Raya Haji la...Soooo todae i met fafa and jah..Omg!!! its been a long time since we 3 went out la..Everyone is sooo bz somemore me!! lucky todae everyone free...We went to parkway to get some stuffs...fafa had her menicure done..Jah wanted to buy her tongue stud and she went to the bank...I got my new nose stud bling blings!! I and jah played Arcade la..Fun okae!! she was like farhah how old are u..Den i was like jahh.....plzzzz!!!! at first she didnt follow me tapi finally with my sweeet face she even join me for a race of car...hahhaa and i won!!! den i played bike tau...And i lose to a small boy!!!! and i scream....Phew' i made a fool of myself la kan...Yeye!! though it was juz for few hours i had fun...I love u 2 okae....Always remember that...Soo then finally i turon paya lebar met Anwar...He wanted to intro me to his best fren...SO i went la kan..And i heard peh banyak nya stories about him and his past...hahaha....ok funny la..

Ohh yea did i mention that next week there's people who i call them posers are working in the saME area ...And like fuck kan....Got this few people that i m not gonna mention name{ and jgn nk prasaaaaan eh} tried to carik pasal with my nursing galfrens...Dude get a life la...4 more days till i graduate then i wont see any of ur shitty faces...Sometimes its soo irritating wen u have this kind of people around u...

Thiss is 2008 goin to 2009 acting big and showing off is like sooooo last summer...Try being someone who u really ah..

Anwar is extremely sweet la.. He msged me in the middle of nite saying that he woke up tinking bout me and missing be...and he said..OMG he tink he is falling deeply for me...let time handle everything k...kalau da memang faithed den let it be...coz i dont have any answers to ur questions now...

2008-12-04T21:59:00.000-08:00

How?? Can make it for future Mother??

She is super adorable..I Name her my eskimo baby..Exactly la

One of my favourite job!! i cant wait to have one of my own...hahaha =))

2008-12-04T05:09:00.000-08:00

At last i m updating about my first week of mother and child posting...Soo 4 days of attachment have past...And soo far soo good..i m enjoying my posting...First day there at the ward the morning shift people damn lucky la seh..Managed to see a women in labour..and they saw the baby head sticking out la...Well it was juz not my luck...LOL!!Omg went in the nursery and the babies are extremely adorable and damn fragile...Now i m like a PRO with babies.... ;)Not all babies are lucky as most of us...some of them are being dump by their irresponsible parents...Like damn kesian la knowing some of this poor innocent child stories...If possible i would have adopt them but unfortunately adopting aint easy, alot of paperwork and shits....The rate if teenagers pregnancy is like super high now...Well it aint wrong for early pregnancy infact i salute and respect them as they are able to be a young mother at a young age...But some of them are juz being soo irresponsible...Arghhh its soo frustrating to even tink how people treat others like animals....

U should all see with u re own eyes then u will be able to noe wad i m feeling..

Aniwaes Tomorrow mdm qian last day with us...damn she is like one of the best teacher la..And she tried making jokes with us and all..I juz realise that she is a very nice person indeed...Wish her all the best and hope she get children soon

2008-11-30T02:01:00.000-08:00

Juz came back from an unplanned picnic in east coast..All i noe mum woke me up and ask me get ready...Going for a picnic...Eventually its coz of school holidae soo most of the kids were here..My lovable nieces and nephews are all growing up soo fast..And damn tall la...I da shorty!! soo they everytime make fun of me...Kala kala y u sooo pendek....i juz gave them the pathetic face la...Soo well it rain heavily for a while yet the kids were still playing in the rain...After rain stop we start eating..mum cooked mee goreng and a few other side dishes...Sis in law made chocolate foundee...hahaha nice pe...Alhamdulilah most of us gathered after a while...Unfortunately big bro and 3rd bro unable to join us...Do u noe its damn hard to ask big bro out...very rare to see him although we stay juz a block away...noo comments about that la...I noe i keep saying the same thing blogging how much i love my family....My family can be abit weird yet i truly and madly love them...Though some of us may not be in good terms at time but no matter wad we still have our backs on each other...that the true meaning to flesh and blood...The phrase blood is thicker than water used to be used alot of times last time..but now eventually most of us take things for granted and priorities water rather than blood...ohh well i can say is i pray all the time wishing all the best for my wonderful siblings and insyallah they will be lead to the correct path of life..

MAY GOD BLESS THEM ALL...

oh oh!! Anwar is getting addicted to me slowly...hehehehe

2008-11-30T01:54:00.000-08:00

2008-11-28T22:05:00.000-08:00

Bye Bye! Cgh....noo more attachments there...The next time i ll be there, will be working there..=D

Ward 39 has been the best ward ever...The staff there are damn kecoh and gave us great guidance...I wasnt feeling that well on the last day..having bad gastrics and keep vomitting la...Soo fortunately charlynne and rashiqa did most of the work..hehe thanks my sweet gals...I got lots of chocolates the last day of attachment...Got some from my patients and some from the staff...Soo teacher roughly brief us on wad are the do's and dont's during our kk attachment...

Sooo lately been hanging out with Anwar...Sanggup eh dia to come all the way down from choa chu kang to chai chee...Well he confessed his feelings...Feeling towards him tu mestila ada...tapi not for any relationship at the moment la...His been teaching me punjabi..hahaha...I miss my nursing Galfrens...Especially fadh!!....We will met up soon and go out and have fun...I m realli soorrri if i m always turnin down ur offers bila nk klua....I ll talk to u soon...I got lots of stories to tell u okae...Love u all!!

2008-11-26T05:01:00.000-08:00

Finally the last week in ward 39....last week in cgh...den it shall be at kk hospital...Completed most of my skills except for the traction care...Again i should be thankful to my cp teacher to be sooo nice...39 is like the BEst ward ever okae...

I realised that the amount of women suffering from breast cancer is increasing, and its realli sad to see them suffer by losing their breast..It realli can bring down their self esteem la...kesian kan...And yes the amount of young peopl are dying is also increasing.... there was this sweet young lady whose only 18 is dying due to cancer of the blood....dude thats freaky okae...juz waiting for her time to arrive..Den got a 20 yrs old gal suddenly got paralysis due to one of her nerve...Well all i got to say is wadever we have right now in our life plz appreciate it and make good use of it before its all too late....Doesnt mean we are all still young there are still long way more to go...Take this incident like an eye opening so that we should all the thankful for wad we have coz some people out there are not as lucky as us...We may never noe wads gonna happen later or tmr...Kal Ho Na Ho

I LOVE MY FAMILY

2008-11-22T21:46:00.000-08:00

I m Falling Sick!!
I keep sneezing non stop...And its damn annoying la...Wana talk on the phone also teruk tau...I dont want to take any mc!!!
Soo aniwaes went out with fafa and hannah yesterdai..We went to parkway...They did the express menicure and i sat and wait!! coz nursing cant do la...not bad la the place..quite cheap and reasonable..Oh well den hannah had to go off..Den it was juz me and fafa...we went to play pool...First time ehk main pool ngan fafa juz the 2 of us...Eventually we did had fun la..after a few games we got bored soo we hang out at mc cafe till jah came to met fafa...I had to rush off to met a new fren tamp mall ..hehehhe...Well it was sord off like a date la...His a very nice person and fun...Enjoy being around him la...Soo well he brought his bro along...2 nice people la...And yes there wont be any good byes....HE says mane tau kalau we re faithed to be together, we may never noe...Well he is different from the rest [I hope]
Too early to say anything kan...As days goes by i will get to noe him even better..Not rushing in to anything...
=))

2008-11-22T21:24:00.000-08:00

So another week of attachment has past..Which means one last week in Cgh...Well currently i m enjoying myself in this posting...Coz its very fun and exciting...Thanks to all the staffs and to all the frens..=D

We did help out with the christmas decorations since last yr seh...Its a routine thingy for us i guess...Ohh yea the 2 australian peeps are back in their country..Hope they had gain some good experience here with us...Well i tink i have a good cp lecturer la...she juz sign mostly of my skills...but kan for breast self examination i must find a real patient...leceh la...Insyallah i can do it..Ohh yea i need to do my neuro vascular thingy competent...

U noe wads damn irritating..i have this acting CI in the ward, den she gave me and charlynne an assignment to do...to find out wads inguinia hernia and stuff like that...like wtf...my teacher dont even do that to me....U re juz an Acting!!

Leceh la!!

Time passing by sooo fast!!!

2008-11-17T03:38:00.000-08:00

2nd week in ward 39..This week 2 australian students join us for attachment, its like a exchange student programme...Well nice people there..nothing much to do at 39 coz most beds are empty la...soo if also bz its coz of too many admissions at 1 time...Todae teacher brought the female perineal area for catheter practice...And i got to admit my teacher is damn nice and i like her teaching method...

Todae shocking part was that i admitted mami, rian's mum...she had to go for some op..and elective case la...Soo pretty much simple la...ooh yea den todae kan got one mak cik came to do a breast op, but eventually she was to afraid to do it...realli soo poor thing...she is scared buut then the lump was very big already...kesian...losing a breast for a women is losing their self esteem....it realli affects emotionally and mentally...i understand her position...aniwaes lets juz pray that she will be ready to go for the op before the lump even grow bigger....

This is the Power of God

Todae some MF testing my patient...Cam wth kan..aku dengan rela hati msg kau..beh kau ckp apa mimpi msg kau....eh siallah stop it sak prangai....nk step mane peh besar la...eh aku da tk heran la pasal kau..Coz i m sick of trying to please u and ur fucking attitude!!

hahahaha she said that i treat this friendship cam kawan part time!! like dude....hear wad ur saying...my life doesnt go around u only....u re juz frustrated coz things juz dont go ur way.....hahaha tinking back wad u say shouldnt affect me coz i no longer give a shit...and u ask me to leave u alone kan!! okae soo be it... i will never disturb u again.....and i tink its u that juz lost a person who can tahan u for the past years!!!

**phew** others did warn me bout u...but well now then i realise it....

Aniwaes i m who i m...i m free to do anything i want, to go out with whoever i want...and i got no one to report my whereabouts except my wonderful parents....Sooo let me live my life my way!

2008-11-15T08:20:00.000-08:00

Soo went back to skul yesterdai to key in our cip thingy...and met most of my classmates...yeye!!! soo happy....den damn kecoh la...talk nonsense alot..insyallah we planning a graduation chalet or pit okae...Den the sis kol me and ask me to follow her and her guy frens la..soo fortunately i m free soo i juz tag along..

I went to clark quay with sis and her guy frens...well i love clark quay la...its a best place to enjoy....i wana goo there with my gfs la...go there with sis boring la, coz i the devil and she the angel..hehehe...Finally we watch the quantum of solace 007 james bond movie..the movie aint that bad la...abit confusing

Soo Todae hannah came over to my place after her driving practical...yes me interrupted my beauty sleep...she managed to see me havent bath...ok tk senonoh la...Den met up fie, kinah, didee and labvee...The plan was to play bowling coz fie got free tix...eventually the place was damn pack la...so we went to city plaza and play pool...i hate that place la...i soo prefer parkway sooooooooooo much better...

In the end up at bdk reservoir play taiti and bluff...fun la play esp with that labvee....

okkaeee noo comments...

Been coming home late even my sis la...Parents are upset coz they feel like tunggal[ thats wad mum say]...

I noe mak and abah that i havent been spending time with u 2 and i m truely sorri bout it...I feel realli bad tinking bout it...omg!! sometimes i realli wish that i could doo something to make everything better..but i cant be clapping with only 1 hand.,,i need the rest to clap with me...Dude at times i realli feel sooo useless....Insyallah once i start working, i ll be able to help them...

My love for my parents are undescrible...i cant even imagine wad will i do without them...Ohh god thanks for giving me the best and wonderful parents ever... i Dont tink they noe how much i love them...

2008-11-13T05:22:00.000-08:00

First week in ward 39 is nearly over....The ward is damn shiok la....and freaking cold la....damn chill and not much work...if bz also coz got alot of admissions and have to prepare patient for op...I realli wish that i m gonna work there once i apply at cgh...ohh yea my ward has like 2 cubicle of High-D and theres alot of interesting cases..Like theres this young turkish gal tried commiting suicide from 3rd level coz fight with boyfren...like stupid la...wan to do die go 10 floor la...aiyaaaa....i managed to do some catheter skills....but all initials la...

Havent been realli in touch with much people coz been realli bz...mostly afternoon shift la...den like noo life la...wake up sleep den go work, after work den sleep....

Aniwaes i tink to have a gf/bf in the same att grp is total disaster la...i mean yes u are attached and u re in love but plz dont bring it in the ward la...MEluat la seh....Get a Life LA!!!!

I always have this theory if u wana do something and u dont wish people to noe, be more smarter la dont get caught!!

The same case with me smoking in my uniform...Gooshhh

I miss my nursing Girlfrens la like alot sia...I miss My wonderful Classmates....I miss Skul!!......I miss all those gossips and all those bullying...i miss all those latest stories....Its juz sooo fast that we are all going apart.....Please note that having all of u with me for 2 yrs its juz been a wonderful moment....

=))

2008-11-07T07:53:00.000-08:00

2 weeks completed in my medical posting at ward 44... Damn how time pass by soo fast...Next week is the starting of my surgical posting and it is at ward 39...YEY!! i love that ward....staff there are damn gerek and there quite relax la...furthermore is an air con ward...

Ward 44 aint that bad....the worst ward i ve ever been to is ward 49...Ohh well..Starting to apply job at cgh soon, juz that i dont realli noe the procedure like...Stoopid Cp teacher keep put me alot afternoon shift la...den like that how to complete all my skills seh....haiz...My body have been aching and feeling soo fatique...i need to sleep for like one whole day..I feel constipated.....DudE!! working with my peeps are the biggest gift anyone can give to me...We will always stick together...Lets juz hope everyting goes on smoothly till the end of posting...

Aniwaes my poor baby fafa had an accident at work juz now, and unfortunately she had a mild fracture on her toe...soo kesian nya...Ada hati nk balik sendiri...lucky i was free sooo as a great fren i went to pick her up...worst part is that poor gal is on crutchers...hahaha funny la she... Dont worri fafa tink positive 2 weeks mc seh...and den can claim cash from ur work place somemore and dont forget to share2 with me...I managed to send her home safely la...Get well soon babe...

2008-11-02T06:32:00.000-08:00

2008-11-02T06:11:00.000-08:00

Had work on sat morning coz i got to replace a day...Coz i absent 1 day sim trainin...Lucky got 6 of us payback..Soo got frens la...i tell u ah it feels like shit workin on sat la..damn bz and got lots of irritating patients relativees...Damn lots of admission somemore...Unfortunely i got lots of mental patients in the ward...but the staff there are okae la able to ajak bebual...Working with haikhal and charlynne is Wonderful...hehehe....rashika nvr come soo cannot bully her...hehehe...

Soo after work i had to rush back home coz Rian's engagement day la...everyone was waiting for me...paham2 la i kan keje...very sweet though..

All dressed up for the event...Its was damn exciting coz everyone from my sec skul will be there..its like a gathering for us...After 2 yrs since all of reunite back...I manage to take some pics but more pics are in hannah digi cam...to get the pics from her will take a bloody long time la...hehehe...Wow everyone one of us are growing up soo fast...smua da ada motor then one by one starting to settle down...It seems like it was yesterday wen all of us were doing shitty stuff in skul...Now all matured and have their own life...Sad though....Soo aniwaes wondering wen will be my turn??..hehe...well aint that fast la... focusing on my career first...Den can talk bout serious relationship..So after all the catching up done, i lepak jap at bdk reservoir mac...And yes labvee was there as well as azrin...It feels weird having both of them around...labvee my ex and azrin contacting me now...hard to explain wad i m feelin..i juz cant put it in words...arghhh....maybe i m juz weird la... Emotions taking over me!!

LOL =D

Will Update the Pics Soon

2008-10-29T02:01:00.000-07:00

I m back in changi hospital...in a brand new ward...Now in my medical posting, ward 44...Will be there only for 2 weeks...people there are okae...i must say that there are alot of LOUD nurses there...ohh well like it or not i have to get over it..only 2 weeks mahh..my cp teacher is okae la..but now she is with another lecturer...like wtf kan!! 2 lecturer assessing us...not fucking fair...that stupid teacher never take care of her own cp students...aiyooo...must complain to the head...ooh yea and my shoe that i have been using for nearly 2 yrs suddenly that kpo lecturer say cannot use....like plz ah no use wana buy new shoe..gonna pass out soon wad!!! Weirdooooo....

Have u ever felt like u are always in the middle for any fights?? Have u ever felt that u tried ur best making things work between evryone?? Well i m in that position...Listen okae...i m fucking neutral!! i have no issues with anyone..and if u people have issues between each other deal with it...i m sick and tired being in the middle...in the end i get shit...i hate this thing that u all are having but its ur decision...krg da besar kan...da berbulu mane2...soo guess that means that u are able to handle this problems...i juz feel like backing off from everythin...everything includes frens,guys, family...i juz wana be alone..i wana sit and eat alone...!!! i need some space from all this...can u guys juz give me a break....i m not able to take this pressure...Y cant things be like last time?? wad went wrong?? i m sooo blurrr.......maybe this is the moment where everyone start drifting apart coz of differ life and career..BUT that doesnt mean everything have to change okae....
I will never lose this friendship that i have with all of u...i will always be here for u wenever u wan me...I always cherish and appreciate this friendship that we have for nearly 7 yrs....
MAy allah always bless all of u and guide all of u to the right path of life...

2008-10-25T08:57:00.000-07:00

I donnoe wads my problem orr why am i feeling soo down...i juz feel like letting goo of my feelings...its been more than a yr since we went our own way...but suddenly things are juz coming back...i tink u re not a man...i dont hate u...ok maybe i hate u..but its juz fucking hard to forget u...obviously coz u were my first true love...i ve been through alot with u...we have shared everything...well mayb coz we re not faithed...u keep saying stop bragging about the past...but fuck la i wan to let u noe wad i feel and wad u have done..make u realise y am i treating u like shit....i may look normal outside but deep down i m fucking hurt and i doo tink about u...juz that no one noes bout it...wenever i keep telling them that i miss u they will start telling me stop wasting my time thinking bout u...at times i juz cant control my feeling....Y did we have to met again after soo long...The sight of ur face make me feel like slapping u but at the same time hugging u...i swore that i felt like shit for months after the breakup!! HAve u ever noe how i feel...kau pk pasal diri kau sendiri...its time u start growing up and start realising ur goods and bads...it hurts me wenever they tell me that u were having lots of problem...but at the same time i tink u deserve it...I fucking hate u asshole but i miss u sooo much!!!! y cant any of u understand wad i feel!!! omg... i nearly cried wen u asked for forgiveness during raya...yea i do forgive u but remember that wadever happen in the past can never be forgotten..coz it was something memorable for me...

ok ok!!! i shall stop all this emoing...furthermore i m having my menses soo i m having my moodswings...SOME GUYS ARE JUZ TOO DUMB..

All i can say appreciate all ur love ones while u still have them..Cherish all the moment spend with them before its too late...AND the theory about first love cant be forgotten is true okae...i suddenly realise it...But i m strong i m able to overcome this insyallah....

2008-10-23T04:32:00.000-07:00

2008-10-23T04:21:00.000-07:00

2nd last day till the end of my ang mo kio posting...And yesterday the hospital had a karoake activity for the patients..So all of us have to take part..It was much more fun than wad i expected...Its realli great to see the patieents enjoying themself..So its a way to motivate them and to show them that its not the end...YEY!! i love my patients though at times they can get abit fussy...Its quite sad to leave them coz 2 weeks since all of us have been attached emotionally to all of them...The staff there are excellent la though they re not locals but easy to get along...and the NC is gerek....ohh welll i did have fun during this posting..I saw how they do acupuncture todae....mangkok sia...Put a needle in the head...damn!! i m sooo never gonna try that out..but i heard that acupuncture reali works...

I Love My Cp MAtes...

Rashika and me always doo crazee things together....she enjoy camwhoring while showering patient...hahahahaha.....i lovee her lots....andd she love pardes....hahahaha

i m weird!!

2008-10-21T03:53:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since i received a sweet flower..A sweet flower from my sweet jaan... I m very touched and super surprise to get this gift..All i can say is that its amazing to get to noe someone like u in my life...Only God noes wad future lay for us...I cherish and appreciate every single thing bout u..

2008-10-17T09:24:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY TO SWEETHEART...

yEYE...

The moment u have been waiting for...finally my girl is growing up So fast...

MAy allah always bless u and ur family...Wishing u all the best with him...Having u in my life is a blessing...We have been through thick and thin...Juz wana say i appreciate having u around me..Without u, feeels damn quiet la....Hope u have a great birthdae and u will always be Loved...

2008-10-17T09:16:00.000-07:00

Yes Finally its fridae...

1st week of attachment is completed..Now attached in ang mo kio hospital for my geron posting...

I m back in my working mode...noo long in the lazy mood la...The distance there is like long la...damn leceh la...Working environment there aint bad...staffs are extremely friendly and fun...The biggest problem is the Cp Teacher...She is juz a pain in the ass...Stupid china bitch she is torturing me...I juz cant wait to get this over and done with...

Soo Well My Cp mates are fun...Loves**

Kinnda Miss skul and the class mates...

I noe during attachement i got lots to update bout the interesting experience but soo far nothing much..We shall wait till i get back to changi....i bet there will be alot...I miss CGH

2008-10-12T03:29:00.000-07:00

JR0701E Hari Raya Outing Was extremely fun....

Planned by me and KEcik...Well it did work out...

This is the first time we all went out together and i m very happy with it....All i can say is that i can never ask for better classmates in my nursing course....Without all of u, i will never be motivated like wad i m todae...thanks For everything...Its realli sad that 2 yrs have gone past soo fast and we will all go our separate ways...Insyallah we will always still stick together......

I Love ALL of u... Good luck to everyone of u guys...and may allah always bless all of u and guide to the right path.....

Yes maybe i shall plan for the chalet for end of this yr okae...Coz all of u tk leh harap everything farhah must do kan...hehehe ok lucky i nice enough...

So let the pics do some talking.....

2008-10-12T03:21:00.001-07:00

2008-10-07T09:29:00.000-07:00

Hari Raya Celebration was ok la for me..Nothing interesting except that i went jln raya with frens on sunday..Wasnt plan and very unexpected..Alah only go to 3 houses...Collection was ok la...Not that much but able to survive my daily..Esp to get ciggs...

Ohh Yea yesterdai i watch my first M-18 Movie...hehehe its sooo thrilling la kan...I watch BigStan...movie was very worth it to watch..It was funny, dirty and action...The kind of movie that i love...
Been going out like everyday and i feel bad...Dad cant sleep if i m not at home eventhough i have the house key..he told me that he dont feel good if i m not safely at home...I felt realli bad seh..Mum da malas wana nagg at me for going home late..ooh well....attachment is starting soon and i have to stop being in my holidae and lazy mood..My Sleeping pattern is wayyy sooo wrong....
I need help...

I tink my feelings for him have gone even deeper..A part of me realli wana be with u but a part of me is just holding back...I m afraid that wadever had happen last time happens again...My feelings for u are true...U realli have proved to me everything of ur love..I dont wish to hurt u nor lose u...I m enjoying myself now like this...I cant gurantee u if we can last long coz i dont even noe how i feel...I m afraid! But wad u say have always made me realise that i can never stay like this forever..YEs i may give it a shot...but i donnoe wen will i say yes..I realli appreciate every single thing u have done for me....Lets juz pray for the best..and i hope wad u did in the past u wont do it again with me...Coz i will realli cherish every single thing....Maybe wad i m feeling is realli love....I cant sleep without hearing ur voice and i feel soo empty without ur msges...The smile on ur face is stucked....I enjoy being around u...I juz love every single thing bout u..God this feeling Can get Shitty

2008-10-04T03:46:00.000-07:00

YEa me and my sis camwhoring in the car...Do we look alike??

Posing outside the house while waiting for the rest to get ready

With my Adorable Haziq, his first hari raya with us...

Dad with his youngest grandchild, sarah...

My sweet sweet baby nephew... he loves camwhoring...juz like his Kala

KAn sweet kalau pakai tudung!! hahaha like real...

Same Blood But Different Personalities....No matter how irritating she can be i will always stand by her side....

2008-09-30T08:59:00.000-07:00

Ramadhan have ended and syawal have started...I would like to take the opportunity to Apologize for the things that i have said or done that may have hurt anyone of u...Please forgive me in my sincerity apology..

Syawal is a month that everyone have been waiting for...A month where we all forgive each other...A month of joy and happiness...

I miss my grandparents...Hari raya has never been the same without u...Whenever i hear the takbir i will be crying thinkin about the memories wen u re still with us...

I know that u are in a better place and u will be much more happier there without any pain...I will always remember u and i will never fail to pray for u....

Oh Dear Allah please forgive my grandparents mistakes and put them in a better place...

I thank you everyday for the wonderful parents, family and life, i have....i can never ask for a better life.. Wadever problems i faced i will take it as a test from u yet i m still very syukur for everything that i have...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAY ALLAH ALWAYS BLESS U AND YOUR WONDERFUL FAMILY...

2008-09-29T08:22:00.000-07:00

Hey

No More birthdae celebrations for now till middle of oct and end of december...Most of us are finally 18!!hehehehe

Been hangin out with khai lately and we re getting damn closer as days past by...i hope things will remain the way it is...His juz sooo adorable..hehehe

Omg i kene saman okae for throwing ciggs at ecp..

A Word of Advise to Smokers out there: Do Not throw cigs anywhere even east coast now have their own rangers to do the Fine...Go and Get urself a Portable ash-tray and thats possible trust me...I m soo paranoid now after smoking!! hehehe a good lesson to be learn..Please keep the Environment safe and bla bla bla...

Fortunately hari raya coming kan....oohh there goes the 200 bucks...damn....

Yey hari raya coming...fasting is finally ending and the days are passing by sooo fast..Hari raya's preparation is complete i guess...i mean the kuih's are all done, the house quite clean la except my room coz i m the one thats always making things worst..hahahaha....

Todae i went out wif fafa,jah,hannah and amirah!! We went eyebrow threading..it hurts sial...damn...Hannah did her face threadin, lagi sakit kan... den we went shoppin for kasut raya...

I beli 2 heels seh...damn high okae and damn cheap..hehehe...i liiokeee.... i also buy a small bag for raya....nice la...i mean kena wif my baju raya...

Ohh FYI this year i pakai baju punjabi suit.....coz i got no choice, my irritating sis using it soo i also have to use...arghhh but still i m very thankful that i got nice clothes to celebrate hari raya...

weeeeeeee~~.

Lets hope that this will be like one of my best hari raya and lets pray that i get more money this yr....Next yr nooo more duit raya for me coz da start keje......Ok now its stink to grow up tooo fast...for all u noe i m already sending my weddin invitation cards!! The days are goooooooooing tooo fassssttt....

I Love My Parents sooo Soo much...Alhamdulilah that i m blessed with the best parents...I realli appreciate every single thing they have done and given to me..MAy allah always bless them and give them a long life..Amin....

2008-09-25T09:33:00.000-07:00

2008-09-25T09:25:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthdae To My Sweet Hannah....

Finally the moment u have been waiting for have arrived..Yes my baby is Semi- legal already.. Juz wana let u noe that having u by my side for all this while have been a blessing for me...I will never let a wonderful fren like u go...I m very fortunate to have u...May Allah Bless u and ur family always...I ll pray that u will succeed in life and be wad u wana be...Trust me that i will always be right beside u wenever u need me...Take Good care of urself especially wen it comes to guys...Never be taken in by their sweet talks!!...

Show them whos the MAMA!!....

Hope u had a great time with us at the airport...Sorri couldnt do much for ur bdae...

I love u honey..

2008-09-20T03:28:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR MUMMY...

I shall not put ur age coz i noe u will be mad at me...I love u sooo much, though at time we cant see each other face but i will never never abondon u...I realli appreciate every single thing u did for me...May Allah always bless u and have a Long life, with good health.....I wan u to still be here to see me kahwin, and most important is for me to take care of u...U re My Role model ((: .... U re the greatest mother anyone can ever ask for...No body can win ur cookings...hehehehe..

Hope u have a great Birthdae Celebration...Thanks for making me who i am todae...Without ur guidance i will not end up here....Syukur Alhamdulilah that i got the BEST mummy...

I lovee u Mummy =D

2008-09-19T08:07:00.000-07:00

Below are all the pics that i havent updated yet...And other pics i juz felt like posting...To remind people out there that i still MISS and CARE for all of u...I miss all the moments...Lets juz hope for the best.

2008-09-19T07:30:00.000-07:00

2008-09-18T12:15:00.000-07:00

i donnoe wads been bothering me lately..I juz cant sleep early....Sooo The time now is 2 am... My sis is fucking irritating, cant hear music or watch tv coz it will effect her damn sleep...get a life bimbo...Doesnt mean u re pressurize wif exams u can vent it on me...Blooodyyy tooot...
I have been like confused yet speechless...Some people talk without even thinkin...Fortunately i m tooo nice to certain people and they pijak my head....
Sooooo i m feeling kinnda bored and lonely at times...I m totally confused wif guys la...First they say this then next moment they say something else...Allah...Dont mess wif my prasaan okae!!
Sometimes i donnoe wads the problem wif me...There are nice guys out there wanting to be wif me badly but i juz dont want....My heart juz not open for them....I guess the problem is me..i tink guys are juz pain in the ass...This Someone told me that farhah stop helping people with their relationship problem wen u cant even help urself...
Well u see the thing about me is i dont pretty much priorities me first, the most important is to help those who needs it...I have noo intention of hurting anyones feelings but at times i juz have to say wad i got to say...at times i do feel like i need someone by my side but to think twice bout it well u noe mayb its tooo early...I doubt most people noe wads actually love....
Sooo well back to reality...i wana make special announcement to my Mates out there

I Miss Hanging out wif Fafa and Jah....I m sorry if things hasnt been smoothly at this moment...Please make urself free and we shall go out like last time...Stop Sulking like kids and start Showing Some Love Ya'll..
Elfie Aslynah I have always cherish and appreciate our friendship...I love u too my small baby...
Hannah Atiqah, Yes Yes Yes we all noe that u re turnin 18 soon and insyallah i will make ur bdae a memorable day ever...Remember to becareful wen u start getting to noe guys...And yea i noe wads kuih talam ubi,i guess..hehehe
Shahira i wish u all the best in ur future wif him, rest assured that i m always here for u...And yes please be extra careful bila naik motor....
Fadhilah Baby i m starting to miss u and ur craps....I m missing all the gossips and stories...hehehe..May u last long wif ayul always...Our friendship will never end okae...
Farzana i misss u tooooooo u noti noti gal....Yea i wana met u and all soon, MAke sure u stay in ur grandma house and stop merayaping...I miss u noti laughter too esp wen u re making fun of people..
Aiyshah wow ok i got to admit i miss u and ur irritatingness...The way u bully me and the way u scream and shout...damn kecoh la....Wish u all the best wif u and kadok aite...
To my wonderful classmates who are reading my blog..I juz wana say that i couldnt have asked for better peole in my class..2 years of skul is comin to an end soon and it feels like only yesterday skul started...I realli love all of u and i hope all of us will always keep in contact...So be prepared for real work baby...Wish u all the best my sweethearts...Thanks for all the moral support...Like Big bro say satu mati..smua mati..((=

Omg i shall stop here before i carry on my emoness due to boredom....Seriously the weather is fucking hot!! and i my own personal fan isnt strong enough.....I m cranky...oohh yea my house got lampu kelap kelip tau..i PAsang kan my mum and shee sooo happy....Ohh yea la lupa wana say that i miss my brothers and sisters...I miss my whole big family..Please doo met up soon or lets buka together as a big family though i noe that will never happen coz of ur bloody egos....Yooo Bro Throw the ego man..This is Good month to show each other ur love....

YES I M FREAKY AND WEIRD

2008-09-16T10:22:00.000-07:00

Things been hectic...I manage to solve certain issues and complete a few task that is expected to be done by myself....Sooo i juz highlight the hair to yellowish ash brown color..I sat at the saloon for 2 1/2 hours juz to complete it...The color turn out damn striking!! den i went like shittt....How am i sposed to go for attachment coz there is no way i m goin to dye my hair black...Soo i thought of a solution to buy more gel and get 2 bottle of black spray..Juz in case my CP teacher will be a pain in the ass...Mum call me a skunk coz of the color...hahaha but i noe she like it, she juz wont admit it...

Bought 1 piece of baju raya already...Coz of the irritating sis i have to get a punjabi suit...Cam babi kan apa dia nk smua dpt...Ok so i got black and white punjabi,ok la not that bad...Quite hot la if i use...wakakakaka...Was tooo tired to even continue shopping....

OOh yea did i mention that i bought my mum a lampu kelap kelip...Jah teman me to tamp juz to buy the lampu...Sweet of her..hehehe....Mum was quite pleased and happy that i got her smt la...I m glad i m quite useful okae...Soo i figured out wad i wana do during my holidaes..I m not goin to work but i m gonna make myself useful and help out mum and dad....Prove to mum that i m soooo much better than my irritatin useless sis!!

oooohhhh yea.... i feel that everything is sooo hectic around and i m not able to spend time wif my some people...People out there also must understand la my position kan...

Eh good thing tau if i at home help mum i wont have the urge to smoke but if i m outside automatic babe....

I have been having bad menstrual cramps before menses....The pain is bad la seh....But the thing dont want to come out!! its stuck!! ok ok i shall not elaborate more...

I AM NOT INTERESTED IN ENTERTAINING UNREASONABLE PEOPLE!! GET A LIFE MONKEYS AND POSERS + HYPOCRITES DONT BELONG IN MY DICTIONARY...

I miss My Nursing Friends and My Best Classmates....

I miss My dear hannah and Shahira..

2008-09-12T01:59:00.000-07:00

Everything is changing....i hate it this way...i mean i m big enough to noe wads bad and good okae....And yes memang aku akan pandai2 bawa diri...PErnah ke aku susah kan krg....If u got reasons y shouldnt i get along wif people who u dont like tell me straight to the face...I hate hearing this from others....Whenever u and me have an arguement u go round complainin to others....Dont be a wimp and settle it on ur own....Plz la everyone have their life to live on...I love u all,i swear without all of u i m no one todae...U gave me the strength and motivation to be wad i m todae...I m realli thankful to god that i ve people like u all in my life....But to make things better come and tell me wads ur bloody problem...Wads wif this line Sendiri mau ingat?? I dont wish to fight wif u lagi2 bulan ramadhan...Other than msging me nonsense,msg me the reason to the problem...I dont understand u...Wad can i do to please u all.??? Susah sangat nk jaga hati smua org..Den who is gonna pleased me if keep pleasin everyone???Tell me la...i m sooo sad and dissapointed....I hate people who act normal outside but deep down they got lots to say....I mean come' on man....its time to be more matured and to talk things out like aduts, and put the minah rep way of talking aside...We all have our own reasons to get angry but PLEASE be more reasonable....I m sick and tired of this...I m happy wif the way i am...Sociallizing with people everywhere and i feel comfortable wif everyone...I Dont have any issues wif anyone and it will stay that way...

2008-09-09T09:37:00.000-07:00

Yup 18 Already and still living life the usual self...though i still dont belive that i m already 18, semi-legal la,wait for 21 to get full licence...Ok enough of braggin about the 18 thingy...Waiting for hannah,aiyshah and fafa next....hehehehe

Sooo Yes i have completed my 2 exam modules...And alhamdulilah its all over.... though pcb for me was quite tough,i didnt realli had time studying....I focused moore on bh2... So well lets juz pray for the best...I realli wana suceed in this career badly... 1 month holidaes here i come...Well i m bored and i wana find a part time job..Anyone noes any part time jobs available plz inform me!! thanks...

Todae went to geylang to buka outside...With most of my classmates and jah and hannah...Marhabak i tink the name of the place we ate....Ok for the first time in my life i enjoy the day at geylang bazaar...The crowd was okae la...There were lots of hot guys sia...i swear...i m smiling all the way....Cam tk rasa penat seh...i wana goo back there....ok ok!

Did i mention that my 2nd bro gave me an mp4...ok that was least expected la....shockin as well as greatful la....i noe he still loves me no matter wad but he dont show it...

I need a job....i m bored...ok 3 more months to attachment that i m free......Its real work baby....

Sooooo yes i havent got my baju raya...i donnoe wad to wear this yr.....Geylang baju all got to go balls.....hehehe...

I Love My Family Superrr Doooper Muchh....

2008-09-07T03:01:00.000-07:00

This are some pics of my gifts...Alhamdulilah syukor for the wonderful gifts...

Though some gifts cam bahasa kan org je...I got a cute Underwear from hannah...hahahaha

I love the wallet,from my sweet jah...And i need watch,got it from my dear fafa....The t shirts say it all...

hahahahah....

Thank You people!!! The card is wonderful....

2008-09-06T02:31:00.000-07:00

The wonderful frens celebrated my bdae a day before my birthday..Planned was to buka at simpang bedok coz my dear jah and hannah booked the place already...Soo i though it will juz be a few of us la kan coz my nursing gals say they not coming sooo i abit sad la...Sekali wen i cam there i saw everyone..I was speechless and Shock man!! i swear it was unexpected...Soo lepas da mkn kan...Aiyshah and kadok came late, all i knew was they were behind me holding a cake and singing to me...And damn malu okae...everyone were singing loudly at Simpang bedok...WAd do u expect...Pai sey la...Everything was wonderful...i was pretty much speechless...This is the best surprise and the best bdae celebration i ve ever had...Alhamdulilah...The best part was wen i open some of the pressies...I damn speechless again....hahahaha.....

After the eating we went to play pool at parkway paradae...

Ok Farhah here wish to thank people who made it To celebrate wif her at simpang bedok,

Special thanks to :

Jah

Hannah

Fafa

Amirah

Fadh

Ayul

Wani

Farzana

Ted

Aiyshah

Kadok

Elfie

Rakinah

Didee

Azrin

Raimi

Wan

Fendi

2008-09-04T05:37:00.000-07:00

Syukor Alhamdulilah i did well for my cpr phase test...Thanks everyone for the moral support and the wonderful advise...I m very touched...All my hardwork and prayers have been answered....Thanks Allah!!

Sooo aniwaes Selamat Berpuasa everyone...ok ok something i need to admit, i do fast okae but i smoke!! Puasa tapi isap rokok boleh tk?? hahahaha okae hard to control la,stress in skul...On diet now....

Thurs and Fri no skul coz revision at home...Den next week mon and tues final exams...Alhamdulilah i did start studyin already..=D

Soo aniwaes i m really looking forward for this sat...My sweet galfrens wana buka luar to celebrate my birthday...A moment that i juz cant wait...We goin to mkn at simpang bedok...Insyallah everything will go as plan...

18 yrs old here i come, Finally LEgal for everything...ok ok maybe most,but mum keep on sayin i m still under her wing...hehehe i noe my dearest mother, i noe my limits wen i get notii....

Things been realli weird in my life!! Expect the Unexpected!!

ISnt sooo unbelievable for someone to confess that he had love u since the first day?? ok ok totally weird...Do u believe in love at first sight?? Coz i think thats totall bullshit...As much as i love hindustan, This is REALITY...Ok things are happenin to fast....i hate rushing into anything...its reali amazing that i m finally openin up to u and only u....But to love,its too early to say...i feel comfy and happy around u...As times goes by insyallah the feeling will grow stronger and deeper....And i m also lookin forward on 12 sep,i got a sweet date wif a sweet guy..Let that day be a memorable day for us and ensure that it will be a special day for us...**Cheeky**

Ok Ok the weirdest thing was...A guy who i least expected...totally least expected asked me out....Like a date....i tell u my mulut ternga2 seh....i dont mind goin out wif him but i hope nothing changes about our friendship....And i hope that there are certain boundaries in our date...No first kiss on first date...hehe like real...

** 3 More Day To Sweet 18 Birthday**

=D =D =D

2008-09-01T02:22:00.000-07:00

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Selamat Berbulan Puasa everyone...

This is the best time to pray and ask for wad u wish for whereby all the pintu langit is open...This is a very good month,so take this opportunity to ask for wad u want...May Allah always Bless everyone...Amin

2008-08-30T08:23:00.000-07:00

A day spent with fafa and jah...I juz couldnt stand anymore staying at home all alone and depressed...still not over it!! i juz need to go out and get some air...Though my body was all aching and i didnt had a good sleep the day before...weird part was i woke up damn early todae....The phase test thingy is affecting me badly,i swear....i didnt feel like eating or sleeping....i juz kept thinkin bout it....Soo me , jah and fafa went to plaza singapura to catch a movie...4bia, a thailand ghost scary...ok the show was good la and quite scary la...I was hugging fafa all the way and jah was the brave one =)...The show was quite funny yet scary.... After movie ended...proceed to met fafa fren, rony...Rony came wif his bro and his fren...very sociable people...good good...So met amirah and farj for a while coz she wanted to pass me something...Eventually i had a great and wonderful day spend wif Jah and Fafa...and manage to talk to hannah todae for a while, she had a unlucky todae couldnt go to spore flyer due to an accident that had occur..i m proud of u hannah for helping people..thats my baby..hehehe...I miss elfie!!! been some time since i met her one on one and talk!!! we are goin to do that soon ok my dear fie....

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid Of what you are
There's an answer...
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know Will melt away
And then a hero comes along...
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside...
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone...
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth...
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road...
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand For you to hold
You can find loveIf you search within yourself...
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappearAnd then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Lord knowsDreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyoneTear them away....
Hold onThere will be tomorrow
In timeYou'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you

I find this song very inspiring..With the words used,i feel that its keeping me strong...In the situation that i m hearing this song realli make a difference....There is still hope!!!

2008-08-29T21:38:00.000-07:00

Everythings been soo messy lately...

I flung on my freaking phase test, cpr aint easy..u got to follow this machine and it will print out some paper and u cant make more than 5 mistakes....omg!!! i m goin through hell....i m fuckin dissapointed and depressed...Wad is it thats wrong wif me...i donnoe!!! y most people can do and i cant...wad is it that i m lackin of....no ones perfect, i noe..but without my bcls cert i will never become a nurse....for the first time in my life i feel damn empty...Maybe wad my mum say is true...this a test from god, now i noe the feeling of being hurt without succeeding in something that i want, now i noe how to appreaciate and love the line that i m in...Omg!... i m in the urge of breaking down and giving up but nooo i cant coz i dont wan my parent to get affected wif my problem..i m not gonnna do something halfway...i m gonna end it the way its was planned...

I m realli greatful wif the moral support that i get from my teachers and friends and parents...It not the end of the world i juz need to keep trying my best...insyallah i will make it..I wana thank all my frens for keeping me strong...Thanks for being there for me wen i m realli down...I m realli thankful to get classmates like all of u...Satu jatuh smua jatuh!! Oh yea thanks for the chocolate habib,was shocking though and it made me smile....

I m goin to do it this tuesday, if it makes me stay the whole day in skul i will.....I want it and i will prove to everyone that i m able to succeed....i m not a loser, i am a winner...With god help i will succeed..

To my gals,i noe i havent had much time hangin out anymore coz everythings been soo messy...We will go out and enjoy once everything is pretty much settle down..I noe we have lots to catch up..I miss u gals and i will always love u alll..Thanks for being there for me..U gals are like my sisters that i never had...

LEts juz hope that 7 sept will be a memorable day for me....I wish everyone will remember my bdae esp my irritating brothers..

OH DEAR GOD PLEASE BLESS ME WITH THE STRENGTH AND THE GUIDANCE TO GO THROUGH WITH THIS OBSTACLE....KEEP ME STRONG WITH LOTS OF PATIENCE..INSYALLAH

2008-08-28T05:44:00.001-07:00

OK!!!

LAst sat Me and honeys went to watch bunga api...

Happening gila la seh....Yea we camwhore coz hannah brought her camera...

PEople who went was...Me,jah,fafa,hannah,farzana,ted,aiyshah,kadok,fadh,ayul...10 of us were like 100 of us....We saw lots of people there...it was rainin tau...lucky bunga pi didnt delay...soo it was still at 9 pm...This time round the bunga api soo much nicer than last yr...Furthermore we had a good view this yr...We were at the bridge towards the merlion at marina...We did ask few strangers to take pics for us which include abg2 cisco...woooo hot...Bhai and his frens were there...as usual he juz cant resist me thats y he always kutuk me =D

Den after bunga api was over met fie,fiza,shikin,rakinah,azrin,wan,raimi and didee....

I had fun loves...I have lots of pics but i malas wana upload alot....Hope the pics will do the talking!!!

2008-08-28T04:36:00.000-07:00

2008-08-21T03:11:00.000-07:00

I nvr goo skul todae....I m realli sick this time since yesterdai....Realli high fever and bad cough...Went to my aunty clinic and she starts wif her freaking irritating noise....Sometimes it sucks having an aunt a doctor...Bising je tau...org betul2 sakit!! sooo thought didnt go skul todae i could have studied abit la...but cant seh...cant focus...my head damn light...I manage to watch hancock todae, dads dvd...other than that i have beeen sleeeping the whole day...And then the kids came... And make damn loud noises...how irritating can that be...Worst part is mum gave all the potato chips too them and never tink bout me.....wa lao!!! damn lammmpaaaa siaaa....

I shall nt continue blogging coz wen i m sick i get cranky or pathetic....hehehehe....

Next week phase test!! Tk leh angkat!!

2008-08-20T05:32:00.000-07:00

Updating my blog on a weekday comes only once in a while...hehehe....

Todae end skul early, met up jah and fafa for a while with farzana...

OOhh yea!!! ALL project are completed and hand in...and pyschiatric test are all over....i m over and done with psychiatric and i dont see a reason attending psy lessons...oooh welll i m nt the kind too cabut..sooo like usual i always sleep in class...hehehe...

Been studying alot on mother and care, breast feeding hurts okae!!....Okae my bcls phase test next week...Fuck man...if i fail i will never become a nurse...juz for ur knowledge bcls is CPR...its not easy pleasing the teachers..Days are passing by sooo fast...3 more weeks till final exams and bulan puasa...sadd thing is my exams are on 8 and 9 sep sooo looks like i ll spend my bdae at home studying....NT FAiR!!! i also wan my bdae too be special...nt only my idiotic sis can have wad she wan...

I have been sick this past few days...flu and bad coughing....shit la...i tink i better stop smoking or start being a social smoker....its making me sickkk......

Banyak Susah la...

I wana see fireworks this sat!!!!!

2008-08-17T07:20:00.000-07:00

YEY!! YEY!!!

Behavioural Science Project finally completed!!

after all the met ups till late...and all the laughing and nonsense...we still made it...Was a success...Weee~~~

A day spend at fadhs hse todae...Doing projects as well as talking nonsense...

We did a makeover for fadh!!! and she looks hot okae...

We cut wani hair to bangs!! da macam Emily...

So everyone was plannin wad to do wif our hair for tmr coz got photo taking for graduating classes...Cam damn fast la da nk graduate kan.....

OOhh yea yesterday on saturday on 16 Aug i went to MASJID okae... semalam hari nifsu syaban...promised mum and dad that i will follow themmm....ok at a moment at the mosque i juz break down and cry hearing wad the ustaz say....shit alot of sins i have commited and i donnoe how to ammend all my mistakes...Its like a wake up call for me...Insyallah wif the correct guidance i will be the right path....

Why the Hell everyone shock i go mosque!! am i that bad??? ya allah...senakal nakal aku i doo pray okae...nothing to be embarrased about...I have basic ugama juz that setan kacau me to do stuff that are nt sposed to do..Ok y m i talkin bout this again....

Haizzzz.....there goes my weekend....

COUNTING DOWN

2008-08-15T07:10:00.000-07:00

Did i mention that i went sun tannin wif fafa and hannah...

ok after a while then i update about the outing...

hehehehe...soorrri freaking noo life la in nursing... It was juz the 3 of us revealing ourself to the sun...i noe i m dark already yet i still wana be more darker...hehehe i wana have that brazilian color...Unfortunately jah couldnt join us coz she juz came back from kelantan...Sun tannin turn out great..i mean my skin colors are even now....Hannah brought her new digi cam that her dad gave her...Camwhoring!!!

We did take lots of pics but coz of some technical problem i only have a few...

2008-08-15T06:55:00.000-07:00

2008-08-10T03:33:00.000-07:00

Spend my sundae goin to fadh hse doing BH2 project...Met zana den proceed to bishan...ate at kfc den fadh and wani join us.....den terhegeh hegeh go to fadh hse...and yes we wasted lots of time....So after reach fadh hse sekali den aishah kol say she wana turon...stooppid den we gt to goo down again and pick her up....Eventually we did do the project la...Ala sikit je....smua buat keje lain...Ok sooo we ended up karoake-ing at fadh place...And i can RAP!! aduh mak minah syg!!....it was damn funny la...ohhh yea i didnt noe that fadh had a nice voice....And wani SANG la!!

SOOO after that we all went to toa payoh to mkn again......but there we met ayul, ted and kodok!! Fork and Spooon SEDAAAAP!!!

Had a great day wif my loves........ooh yea gals make sure we complete that darn project...its due next week lor.....

2008-08-09T07:53:00.000-07:00

YEY some pictures taken from fie bdae on 080808....Nice number ah...

Aniwae fie bdae was a blast for everyone though every well planned bdaes have something that ruin the event..But eventually its didnt effect much...It was like a gathering for me tooo....Met shira okae...like fucking long la havent met her...She bz wif her work and personal life...Met rakinah, didee,farhaimi,raimi,arshad,iskandar.....Weee~~~~ misss all of them...As usual everyone tinks that i look different wif my new look la...They call me Khinzir doll!!! ha ha ha funny guys....

OOh yea!! i Spend national day at home wif my lovely parents...Practically coz i wasnt feeling well.. and i find it important to spend some time wif my parents....And its not boring okae staying at home wif mum and dad....Aniwae to hell wif bunga api....I m still gonna watch it next next week....like wad i always doo wif my nursing gals.....

2008-08-08T09:22:00.000-07:00

I Fucking miss him!! and i hate that feeling... Y the sudden feeling...on this beautiful day....

They came to me telling me wad happen to u...how u ve been getting on wif ur life...Wtf is wrong with u?? Why are u damaging ur life....U don noe that i still fucking care about u...If we were still together u wouldnt have turn like this...i hate u but i still love u...gosshh its sooo complicating...Stucked!! I pity u..i wish i was there for u...to be there right beside u and comforting u....Only god noes wad i m trying to say....The only thing i am able to do is to pray for u...Pray for ur safety and ur happiness.... u will always remain in my heart wif all the memories...

2008-08-08T09:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY ELFIE ASLYNAH NORANI...

May allah always bless u and ur family...wishing u all the best for the future ahead of u...Be strong baby wif all the problems...Always remember that i m will be here for u though u can be irritating at times...I LOVE U!! study hard and prove everyone wrong..

2008-08-05T06:48:00.000-07:00

2008-08-05T06:29:00.000-07:00

Sori sori sori...
yea yea yea...havent been updating...And lots had happen...
Firstly i cut my hair,reborn my fringe and cut it bangs..I love my new look la though i may look immature ;)
So eventually 2nd august my sis 21st bdae party is over...PArty was okae la...I meant it started late coz crowd came after maghrib...So me and zaman was the emcee and we both we totally talking crap la...funny though..So aniwaes audience were quite boring coz all of them were enjoyin eatin mums cookin...We did dance..There were pics taken la but all wif jah waitin for her to upload will take some time la....Soo Then the cake cutting was the best part of the event la...Was a very touching moment where mum,bros and sis all give their speech to sis...hehehe...And 3rd bro gave raudhah a kiss okae!! RANDOM GILEEEE..
I Wanna thank my gals fafa,jah,fie,amirah and aishah
my guys fendi,amran,kadok and zaman...For a great help on that day...I realy appreecciate it alot...Thanks babies...
Oh yea and also syaheera and frens and also bhai and family to come!!!
Eventually my sis have a great 21st bdae party..And gossh she got lots of prezzie okaeeeee....
**jealous**..hehehe....

2008-07-30T20:57:00.000-07:00

So once again i m updating my blog in skul..Well coz i m practically free,freakin skul have freaking long hours of break..And yea i m sposed to do my research for behavioural but i m blogging here...Well i realise that i havent been updating soo much...Been bz wif skul ending late almost everyday and dance practices for this sat event..Omg time is passing by soo fast and i dont tink i m prepared...Everybody been giving me a hard time but they dont understand my position..this event is not the only life i have u noe..Finally i made a decision that i wont need much dance items coz i have a few games on my mind..And yes finally i got a parthner to be my emcee,Zaman shah...Hope on that day we wont be fighting la..hehehe tk habis2...Soo did abit of shopping and i found a new hobby!!! i m goin to collect different type of heels and palms...I love Heels now...Well things for me have been bad...Havent been in a good term wif sis and mum...Arghh long story la...But now things are getting better..I hope so..Oh yea i donnoe y do i alwaes sleep in class...hahahaha!!! gosh gini cam ne nk blaja sak..Seriously la mondae i have a bH2 test and i m not even prepared..Fortunately the topics are commen sense bout psychiatric...Okae!! Omg alot people been meddling wif my feeling la...Kene bully rabak sak...Till one day i juz sit and keep quiet...Seriously at times getting bully suck...even worst wen they bully me at the wrong time sak...allah can ccry la.....hahahaha ok damn pathetic la...My hannah baby went to bangkok todae morning..I miss seh havent met her for quite some time la...Pray that she have a safe flight and hope she have fun...
I wana take MC tmr...i got alot of errands to do...includes cutting and straightenin my hair....Hope the hair thing work out (:

2008-07-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SISTER

May god always bless u and guide u to ur journey of life..Though u may be irritating and damn mean..Note that i still love u and will always love u..I will always be there for u no matter wad...Insyallah i ll make 2nd aug a moment that u will never forget and u will have a great 21 bdae party...Wish u all the best in the future..And hope u will find jodoh cepat2 den i can get the room to myself...wakakakakaka

2008-07-25T02:43:00.000-07:00

Guess where i am now??

In skul on fridae evening..WEll coz i end at 6..Having lifeskill lesson now..Using the com to do some online module...I feeling sooo sad je...In fact i m crying now while listenin to mp3..Smua lagu sedih2..I donnoe y am i getting emotional about..I need a smoke coz i m fuckin stressed up sak...Firstly coz my sis event is like next week and the dance shits havent been complete..everyones been simple bz...Even me...I realli wish i have someone beside me now..I miss my brothers...I m kinnda broke!!...I wana cut my hair...waiting for my 2nd pay from attachment...Gosh!!! i m missing some of my ex boyfriends listenin to different songs...I feel soo lonely...I do have lots of frens but its hard to express wad i feel..I may look like a strong gal outside but i m soft inside...Fuck sak y is it that someone who aint my blood bothers to kol or msg me askin me how am i doin and being soo protective over me whereas my own blood doesnt even fuckin care...I miss those days when all of us go out together as a big family...I donnoe wads happenin..Arent we sposed to be there for each other and help out...I reali wish that things could get back like last time..I m confused!! Wad happen to those words u said that Blood are Thicker than Water...U may tink i sound petty and merepek okae...Hell yea Coz i fuckin CARE!!
Omg!!! Wake up before its too late...Always appreciate wad u have and cherish ur love ones...Only god noes how i feel...Hoping that GOD will bring all of us back to the correct path of life and religion...

2008-07-23T06:23:00.000-07:00

2008-07-23T06:07:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG!!

I finally took some time to freaking blog Coz TauFiK Batisah came to my skul...YEa i noe some may tink its lame or wadever..But seriously i realised he is fucking hot okae...His smile....His body....woooww....He came coz there was some healthy lifestyle event there...Gosh i actually forced all my gfs to go to the indoor hall to see him....His songs kinnda rock la but the best part was his foot movement...Damn baik ah....I Tink u are hot Taufik...wakakaka

hahahahahahah PAthetic kan...

And so i realise that i havent updated bout last sat outing...Yea i guess there were lots of sluttish pics taken but i have nt taken the pics from hannah...I can say that last sat i had lots of fun and i went home damn late la..Mum was pissed wif me but eventually we both are okae already...hehehehe....

Ok sooo good new is i have beeen teachin my sis and her fren to dance and even my irritating niece lahh...Hope all my hardwork dont go down the drain...Weird thing is i m teaching people but then i dont tink i m goin to dance.....wakakaka...Gosh the freakin event is like NEXT Sat!!!

super fast la...

Ok More of skul....Did my stooopid napha test already..Guess i pass all oor maybe except broadjump la....Skul is full of project okae...and i havent even start a single shit...

OOh yea been meeting fafa and jah after skul la...Weird part is zaman da makin naik shiok lepak ngan kita...HAHA!!Thought we were adik2 to him la...

I m goin to update soon la....Ohh yea i juz found out that i drool and snore in my sleep SO Who WAna Be MY Boyfriend again????

2008-07-18T05:17:00.000-07:00

Wad the hell am i doin at home feeling soo bored on a fridae evening...!!!

So the skul end at 520 pm todae but den kan we took 1 freakin hour waiting for the bus coz all of the buses were freaking packed la...So at 610 bus finally arrived but it was still packed yet we all still selit in..Some people are juz soo inconsiderate okae!! tapi tetap kesabaran tu masi ada...hehehe...I practically couldnt concentrate in skul todae coz i was freaking sleepy,hungry most of times and teacher was boring...Dont wana talk much of skul..I feel that i missing out alot of things in life la...Damn!!

Oh yea yea did i mention that yesterdai omar went to my skul to look for me...And i was damn shock okae...Gosh!! He told everyone that i was his one and only darling...seriously i got noo comments to that...Have noo intention to hurt anyone nor to be wif any one...Seriously la....At times i have this feeling to be wif someone,u noe wen u have this feelin of loneliness..Where u wish to share everything and to do everything wif a guy....Its a sucky feeling la...I have always said this to everyone and to bhai that i feel the problem is me and not the guys...People have been telling me y am i nt accepting any one..Well coz i m confused...i m afraid..somethings holding me back...i donnoe wad i wan...I dont wan a good guy and i dont wan a bad guy...So wad the fuck is holding me back and wad the hell do i wan!!

Aniwaes i wana say that bhai have been a great bro to me..He msges or kol me daily to check on me...Hopefully i can met him tmr,maklum la he goin to the zoo wif his family...!!

Aniwae to a guy who always reads my blog everydae, and i guess u noe who u re la...I juz wana say that i realli appreciate the friendship that we have but not more than that..I do like u but i dont see myself wif u..I enjoy talking to u and u the only one who can tahan my seeeeehhh ness at night...And yes insyallah one day we will go watch a movie together k...Sweet guy like u will get someone better than me and yea i noe wads ur answer k..Juz that i feel soo bad towards u..Sometimes its hard for me to express my feelings to u on the phone coz i donnoe how to put it to u..Rest assured that i will always be here for u...So aniwaes i realli hope u will understand my position and wad i m goin through...

2008-07-16T05:37:00.000-07:00

Didnt noe people get upset if i dont update my blog...hahaha...Ok soo Nothing much to talk bout other than my skul...Skuls been shitty la...Project here and there..And yea i got into an argument wif my lifeskill teacher..She is practically lame sia...Buat darah naik je..So wouldnt elaborate more coz it make me more frust...Dont noe wad does lifeskills skit got to do wif nursing..Waste of time la...Seriously la skul timing is killing me...Yes been hanging out wif my gals alot...And To my love in skul Fadh and Farzana be strong baby..I will always be here for u...Dont care wad others do and say coz we will stick together....Fortunately i m starting wif the chreography for sis bdae..but still i need to start the hip hop thingy..This is pressurizing...Aniwaes i enjoy sheesha-ing..I wana go again this sat...

:):):):):):)

2008-07-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

Total great day todae...

Had a date wif Omar todae..hehehe met him at tamp planned to watch a movie but hell noo...The que was like damn long la...Den we took lots of time to go where..Den bugis it was...He ride soo i tompang la...Been long time since i tompang okae on a bike...Freakky..Watch the show stranger...WTF?? A word of advise dont watch that show..Not worth it!!

Ok i damn pai seh la i accidentally drop his hemlet seh..Den his face da cuak seh...lucky never break if not he cry hahahaha..... So well he had to go at 5 and i was meeting a gal name syaheera,she is rauf ex and my new good fren...Omar was sweet enough to wait wif me for syaheera arrival,he said that he wont leave me alone coz he afraid anyone disturb me...hahaha sooo sweet kan...Plz note that me and Omar are juz frens :)

So then met syaheera up and went to banquet to eat...Yes gossiping about rauf starts...Wakakaka he is juz a damn psycho wif no brain and has his balls stuck in his throat..

After mkn khai,my bhaiya called and picked us up at bugis den proceed to al majlis for sheesha session...Bhaiya damn funny la...Was damn fun la hanging out....Arab guys at al majlis was damn hot la...Den feeroz and gang join us at al majlis...hehehe sooorri feer if i never talk to u alot maklum la i malu...wakakaka....

i have fun okae todae..!!!

omg!!! best part was i drop at kembangan and i met shira my closest fren...Yes we both shout in kembangan la...hahahaha been ages since i saw her....

I miss my gff la...

Anyone wana dance plz tag me okae!!

2008-07-09T06:02:00.000-07:00

Been 3 days since skul re-opens and yea i havent been updating bout skul..Well basically coz skul time table is killing me!!....Start skul at 8 and end at 6pm..Worst part is the long hours of break...Juz got to tahan this suffering till September...Got no life la...go skul den come back skul den sleep....Righht....So todae we learn to do backslap and plaster cast...coool huh....and i was the model la...

Seriously la putting a cast on the hand is fucking uncomfortable and its like damn itchy la....So the moral of the story is take good care of ur health plus ur bones....Took psychiatric as my elective..Quite fun la the subject but damn merepek ah...project work do alone....soo nt used to that....So aniwaes fuck 2nd aug is coming soon and i havent even prepared any dance item yet...Chi bye laaaaa.....Got nooo time...sis is gonna screw me okae....Tooo pressurizing...Her freaking bdae soo wad...doesnt mean she gets wadever she wants...She tink easy ah to dance...iritss....oookkaeee i m done for todae..

2008-07-06T04:14:00.000-07:00

On 6 july i did one a great thing..Volunteered to help darul ma'wa...LWS includes me,fafa and fie was at the carnival to help them..I was there at 7.30 am..So people there briefed us on our position if our own stalls...Fie jual nasi lemak,Fafa wif fendi and tiqah sell bubble tea...Den me,habiel,ijah,am,pipi and clarence sold drinks...We sold like bandung,blue berry and lime...Lots of people was there la...and seriously not glamour okae...Sweating everywhere, syrup all over me and face soo oily...Wakakakaka....Eventually i had extremely fun working wif LWS crew...u rock man... It juz felt sooo good helping those poor kids...So aniwaes alot of things happen la...Met alot of my relatives there...Sweeet...I was soo tired sia..Almost fall asleep while mixing the drinks...And Cramps...Like badly la....i managed to tahan okae without any painkillers taken...wakaka...So After the event was over me and fafa took off to chai chee goo mkn...Havent eat the whole day okae....I reali wish to do this again next yr and i ll ensure i much more prepared...Its something worth doing...Coz its not always u are given a chance to help others....I m so proud of everyone who helped yesterday,in fact this event brought our friendship even closer...Stick together aites baby... May God Bless Everyone

2008-07-05T07:42:00.000-07:00

A pic of my late grandfather,with the white songkok during 3rds bro wedding..

A strong man that i will always respect..**Loves**

In few more hours it will be 6 July which is my late grandad's bdae....I miss him alots...I donnoe y am i getting to emotional about it coz i noe he is in a wayyy greater place then here..Its juz that wenever is his bdae we were all gather as 1 big family...Without nana around less gatherings there is...Gosh...Time pass by soo fast and his like nearly 3 years gone...I will always remember u my dear nana and i will always pray for u...Never too worry coz all of us still tinks about u and misses u..May u rest in peace always..Amin..

I realised that people juz go anytime..So always cherish and appreciate ur loved ones before its too latee..Learn to forgive and forget..Most importantly is too always respect our parents..

This is the meanin of life..

2008-07-02T06:26:00.000-07:00

1<Didnt had time to update yesterdays outing...Well basically met farzana up wif my cuzzie and yea been a long time since i went of wif cuzzie..he is always bz wif modelling...ate pizza hut..den met fadh and her cuz and went to bugis...we walk,smoke and talk crap..Finally we went to some place called rochor beancurd...the place was quite ulu...but yea we have each others back....I m happy have fadh and farzana around me...weee**

So the cuzzie went to my place an bully me as usual...

2<So Plan for todae was to wake up early in the mornin and met jah,hannah,fafa and mya at 9 am...We goo jurong swimming place..The last time i went there was wen i was in primary skul okae...soo thing were totally different..Worst part was i was having my menses...2nd day somemore...allah...sooo leceh kan...Sadly we didnt camwhore todae coz our motive was to enjoy...Jurong swimmin pool nooooo hot lifeguards...Ok so i did abit of tanning...not much different though...after done wif swimming,went to wash up...den smua da lapar gila...We ate kfc plus pizza hut....Den went to bueno Vista to get Jah n levels paper...Den took 196 home...omg the journey was like 1 1/2 hours...Shiok ah tdo...

Aniwaes to my gals..Thanks for the wonderful dae...had a great fun

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